My More Serious Note

So, any and all of my friends that read this should know that I am in 100% support of equal rights for all Americans. With that, is equal rights for the Gay and Lesbian community, although some would say otherwise.

The "Don't ask Don't Tell" (DADT) policy, brought into law in 1993 prohibits gay and lesbian individuals from serving openly in the military. If anyone knows that they are gay, they will be discharged from the military, regardless of years of service, stature or what they may have done for our country. This law, is enforced MOSTLY on the basis of gay profiling.... commanding officers have admitted in some cases to searching through emails, personal belongings, and contacting soldier's friends and families based on the assumption that a soldier may be gay or bi-sexual.

This year alone, over 400 gay soldiers have been discharged from the military under this policy, which is COMPLETELY unconstitutional, and (in my opinion) completely immoral and.... let's be honest... just plain FUCKED UP.

This is not to say that I would support and of my friends and family in joining the military, I don't believe in it.... that's another blog all together. However, I am saying that for those that serve to honor our country, and defend our freedom based on what they believe in... deserve the right to do so, regardless of their sexual orientation.

In closing, please call your Senators before Tuesday, and voice your support of repealing the DADT policy. Here in Utah, our Senators are Bob Bennet and Orrin Hatch. I have called BOTH offices and asked that my senators repeal this policy. If you do not know your senator, you can call the national switchboard, and they will transfer you accordingly. In order to do so, you can dial 202-224-3121.


Please support the repeal of this law. Call your Senator. Have a voice. Hate breeds hate. Stop the cycle.

My Loving Husband

I am so lucky to have the most wonderful man to live beside, and fall asleep next to. He is wonderful, understanding, handsome, a loving and WONDERFUL father, and the love of my life. He sent me the cutest little love letter today. I don't want to share the whole thing, but it did include this little quote that I just wanted to share.

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand. - Anonymous

I feel the same way babe. LOVE YOU!

Under it All

A pretty package
black leather and lace
tied neatly with a satin bow
contents: fragile

pull the ends gently
peel back the layers
exposing scars
that will never fade

remove the demure lace with care
revealing small red letters;
caution: contents extremely hot
handle with care to avoid burns

Pull the lid back gently
un-bind the tape
pull back the wings
and you will find me.

Yeah, I Dunno Either

Felt the overwhelming compulsion to write, but had nothing to say. Here ya go:

She touches her two fingers to her lips softly. Closing her eyes, she allows them to rest there a moment before pursing her lips laying a gentle kiss on them and pressing them softly against his lips while he slept. Retracting her arms beneath the safe surface, she snuggled into the comforter softly. The cool soft sateen pillow case against her cheek, cradled her softly as she attempted to float into the warm night, un-baited by small white circles contained by a child proof lid.

My Favorite Asshole

So, this is mostly an inside joke that only people from my online war game would understand... but this is one of my closest friends from that game. He tends to say the meanest things at the most perfect moment, or had phrases he would use often as retorts....so I started collecting them. Unfortunately, he has decided to leave the game, and I'm terribly sad, especially because my list must end. So, as a going away gift I thought I would use my favorites with anyone that cares. Enjoy:

Desisms

<23:58>[Des]: just wait ash when ur getting attacked ill make sure we will take our good ole time to help u out then

<1:19>[Des]: for the ones who have the troops and sit back and watch see what happens when we sit back and watch ur city get destroyed

<6:7>[Des]: dont worry ill find ur drink u be the first one out

<15:28>[Des]: well start talking

<2:18>From [Des] : its a challegne to me to be the best and to kill everyone

<23:47>[Des]: ok when you really need food bad im not here

<3:27>[Des]: great then im doing something right then

<23:48>[Des]: lets see what would you do without me ok ill recall and let you guys kill millions of your own scouts then

<21:59>[Des]: haven't you figured that out yet

From [Des] : i need resources and food and what better way then to attack vendetta's that are close to us

[Des]: declare first ask question later

<11:47>[Des]: well better be quick or ill beat you to it

My God Damn, Mother Fucking, Piece of Shit Point

The English language is comprised of about 30,000 words.....give or take a few ;) Now.... most words are considered important for communication, some are rarely if ever used, and some are considered slang... Then you have inappropriate words, and "swear words." What is a swear word? Who decided that out of all the words in the English language, these ones were THE MOST inappropriate? Also, with that....somewhere along the line we managed to draw a line to some swear words that were worse than others.

FUCK... for instance, and all variations of FUCK, seem to have raised themselves to the top of the list of inappropriate ways to express ones thoughts and opinions. Here is a list, of what I see to be swear words in their list, from most inappropriate, on down the line.

FUCK
SHIT
DAMN
ASS
BITCH
and, if taken in vein.... GOD

These...are the main six. There are also words for genitalia that I am going to go ahead and leave out.... because I can understand how calling someone a "dickhead" might be offensive, because it is actually calling someone a penis, lol. Now, of course there are several variations of the above listed four...asshole....shithead... and so on and so forth. All of the variations are also considered bad words.

Some argue that they have some old deep rooted meaning in the dawns of written word that might inspire an adverse reaction to them. If this is the case, then why are the substitutes for these words acceptable? They mean the exact, same thing, and are even meant to mimic these words in common language, and somehow those are acceptable?

FUCK= FRICK, FUDGE
SHIT= CRAP, SHOOT
DAMN= DARN, DANG
ASS= BUTT (aka BUTT HOLE, BUTTHEAD)
BITCH= BRAT
GOD= GOSH

So.... basically we could take the sentence: "My God Damn, Mother Fucking, Piece of Shit Point," and make it completely socially acceptable to the norm by changing around a few things. Let me demonstrate, using the diagram above.... *clears throat* "My Gosh Darn, Mother Frickin', Piece of Crap Point."

Really? Says the same thing..... different words... same meaning. Why is the above sentence taboo, while the following is completely fine? Food for thought. Annoys the fuckin' shit out of me though... ;)

My Adventures into Psychosis

Exhibit C:

So last week I was sent on an....involuntary mental vacation. They kept calling it a vacation, but my idea of a "mental vacation" would include me, in the Marriot... swimsuit in one hand and a mimosa in the other..... not a 2 inch foam mattress, no shampoo, no shoes, in a room with a camera.

Now, the events that led up to this moment are really rather....moot, to say the least... the point is I was stuck in a very small enclosure in which I couldn't smoke, the food was....not even food, and everyone else was ten times crazier than me. Needless to say this was a little bit of an ego stroke realizing I was the most sane person in the room for a change!

Anyway... it was the most productive experience that I hated every single second of. I met some really interesting people, took a break from my stresses and got a much needed fresh perspective on things. I retain the idea that this could have been achieved another way.... i.e. said vacation above. Either way, that cigarette I smoked when I got out was almost symbolic. I FINALLY walked out the locked double doors, ripped the nicotine patch off my shoulder, and threw it to the ground with a vengeance. I lit that cigarette and gently took the first drag. To me... that moment is really a metaphor for what I gained... what I left behind and I have to look forward to.