Moi

Moi

I love the scent or oranges,
impending rain on a spring day,
and fresh baked cookies.
It always brings me back home.

I'm irrational,
sentimental,
and keep cards from my childhood.

I've fallen asleep to "A Warm Place" every night since I was sixteen, and "A Drowning,"
can bring me to my knees at the drop of a hat.

The feeling of rose petals on my lips makes me melt,
but I hide it well,
and I will never admit how bad my heels hurt.

I am uncontrollable,
disagreeable and completely
unpredictable...

and I offer no apologies for any of it.

My DAMN THE MAN!!

Ok... so, 97.5 The Blaze!! Big Rog is currently holding the controls hostage, refusing to play the "Rockin' Hits" management has decided the radio station is going to promote going forward. The DJ's are on board... and Big Rog is going to play whatever the hell he wants. Ya know what I have to say about that?

HELL YEAH!!!

How many people stand up for what they want? Especially against the employer... THE MAN who prints your paychecks? Not many of us do, but you know we all want to! This man, just one person, trying to make his own kind of difference, and it's amazing. Yes, like he said, he's not curing cancer or anything... but I think this moment speaks for itself.

Here is a link to one of the videos

http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=164874046881199&id=149891625052085#!/video/video.php?v=10150093909851410&comments

One by one the other employees are filing in behind him... and the support is amazing! The "Blaze Van" has been altered as well, and is currently driving around to gather your support!

http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=164874046881199&id=149891625052085#!/video/video.php?v=475136059221&comments

Sign the van to support the effort, it's currently driving around the city. Big Rog will let you know where it is!

Here's their FB page:

http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=164874046881199&id=149891625052085#!/pages/975-The-Blaze/149891625052085

Post your support for Big Rog... or go down to the station. I mean, really... whether this is your station or not... You gotta love a man standing up for the right thing.

GO BIG ROG... I'm behind you!

My Holiday Complaint

Twas' the night before Christmas, and all through the house, not a fashionista was stirring.... Really, what it comes down to is that holidays in general... and Christmas especially are so unbelievably tacky! Even the color wheel is completely ignored, (and possibly quite offended) when decorating or dressing festively. Christmas colors, traditionally, are red and green. Can you think of a less visually appeasing color combination? The only time I've seen these two colors in perfect harmony are on Freddy Kreuger's tattered sweater... and just like that color combination, it only belongs in a horror movie.

I'm going to go ahead and glide right passed the obvious problem of "ugly Christmas sweaters'' because I feel that goes without saying and move right onto decor. In recent years there has been an obvious effort on the part of retailers to be a little more classy in that department.... but let's face it; our options are unkempt Santa-Clauses (red suit with white fur trim? ummm... no), colorful snowmen, overdone manger scenes (complete with fake snow), colorful trains and nutcrackers.... before you even get to the tree you are already in SENSORY OVERLOAD.

So, in my Martha Stewartness.... here are a few suggestions to help you avoid turning your home into Santa's workshop from a bad Christmas movie.

1. Stay away from multi-colored string lights. I have seen a few large bulb assortments that look alright on the outside of your house, but for the most part, these just make your home look like an over-seasoned Dorito chip. Not appealing.

2. If you're going to put out Santa figurines/snowmen/angels/nutcrackers, try to choose ones made with fabrics and stylings that are not corny or cheap.

2. STAY AWAY FROM TINSEL....

3. Real trees are amazing, but a pain in the ass. Try a nice pre-lit fake tree if you're not feeling up to getting a real one and get a pine scented candle. Actually, any scented candles that promote the holiday season will feel homey. Scented candles that mimic baked goods are always good for this occasion.

4. A wreath can be nice.... try to stay away from ones with a lot of shiny ornaments on them, or ugly plaid/or other cheap bows.

5. Stay away from fake snow... including on trees. Not only is it a mess, but you're not fooling anyone.

6. The tree. Again, I suggest staying away from multi-colored lights here. Also.... stay away from messy individual ornaments. Pick a theme and stick with it. Usually a good color theme with 2-4 colors is nice. Various shapes are okay, but try to stick with it. Rogue elements will stick out like a sore thumb and always finish it off with a neutral tree skirt.

7. In general, with any decorations you choose, consider the rest of your home, and how this will fit with it. You don't want your house looking uncomfortably ridiculous for an entire month, right?

Anywho... have fun decorating...for the season, try to stay away from tacky!

Downpour

A single drop denoted
as the collective falls from the clouds
to form puddles on the ground
reflecting a starless sky,
appearing to be nothing,
empty...
waiting for what's left unsaid.
To let it out, in a downpour,
flood the streets
crystal rivers or muddy waters-
Remains to be seen
but the question remains...
Can you swim?

Releasssse

Nothing original here. Just thought I would share some of the most amazing lyrics ever written. Enjoy, or turn back here. I find them inspirational and amazing.

Inner breathlessness, outer restlessness
By the time I caught up to freedom I was out of breath
Grandma asked me what I'm running for
I guess I'm out for the same thing the sun is sunning for
What mothers birth their youngens for
And some say Jesus coming for
For all I know the earth is spinning slow
Suns at half mast 'cause masses ain't aglow
On bended knee, prostrate before an altered tree
I've made the forest suit me
Tables and chairs
Papers and prayers
Matter versus spirit
A metal ladder
A wooden cross
A plastic bottle of water
A mandala encased in glass
A spirit encased in flesh
Sound from shaped hollows
The thickest of mucus released from heightened passion
A man that cries in his sleep
A truth that has gone out of fashion
A mode of expression
A paint splattered wall
A carton of cigarettes
A bouquet of corpses
A dying forest
A nurtured garden
A privatized prison
A candle with a broken wick
A puddle that reflects the sun
A piece of paper with my name on it
I'm surrounded
I surrender
All
All that I am I have been
All I have been has been a long time coming
I am becoming all that I am
The spittle that surrounds the mouth-piece of the flute
Unheard, yet felt
A gathered wetness
A quiet moisture
Sound trapped in a bubble
Released into wind
Wind fellows and land merchants
We are history's detergent
Water soluble, light particles, articles of cleansing breath
Articles amending death
These words are not tools of communication
They are shards of metal
Dropped from eight story windows
They are waterfalls and gas leaks
Aged thoughts rolled in tobacco leaf
The tools of a trade
Barbers barred, barred of barters
Catch phrases and misunderstandings
But they are not what I feel when I am alone
Surrounded by everything and nothing
And there isn't a word or phrase to be caught
A verse to be recited
A man to de-fill my being in those moments
I am blankness, the contained center of an "O"
The pyramidic containment of an "A"
I stand in the middle of all that I have learned
All that I have memorized
All that I've known by heart
Unable to reach any of it
There is no sadness
There is no bliss
It is a forgotten memory
A memorable escape route that only is found by not looking
There, in the spine of the dictionary the words are worthless
They are a mere weight pressing against my thoughtlessness
But then, who else can speak of thoughtlessness with such confidence
Who else has learned to sling these ancient ideas
like dead rats held by their tails
so as not to infect this newly oiled skin
I can think of nothing heavier than an airplane
I can think of no greater conglomerate of steel and metal
I can think of nothing less likely to fly
There are no wings more weighted
I too have felt a heaviness
The stare of man guessing at my being
Yes I am homeless
A homeless man making offerings to the after-future
Sculpting rubber tree forests out of worn tires and shoe soles
A nation unified in exhale
A cloud of smoke
A native pipe ceremony
All the gathered cigarette butts piled in heaps
Snow covered mountains
Lipsticks smeared and shriveled
Offerings to an afterworld
Tattoo guns and plastic wrappers
Broken zippers and dead eyed dolls
It's all overwhelming me, oak and elming me
I have seeded a forest of myself
Little books from tall trees
It matters not what this paper be made of
Give me notebooks made of human flesh
Dried on steel hooks and nooses
Make uses of use, uses of us
It's all overwhelming me, oak and elming me
I have seeded a forest of myself
Little books from tall trees
On bended knee
Prostrate before an altered tree
I've made the forest suit me
Tables and chairs
Papers and prayers
Matter vs. spirit

--Saul Williams

My Eternal Disappointment

I am a member of the Mormon Church. I haven't been active, and would honestly declare myself an Athiest by today's standards, but I was baptized and am a member of record with this "religious organization."

As I've grown up, and learned to think on my own, form my own opinions, and learned to tell fact from fiction and opinion... I've decided that this belief structure is not for me. I'm not saying that Mormons are bad, or anything like that... I've met many wonderful people in my life that would identify themselves as Mormon, and are very active in the church. The great people I've met in this organization will forever be held dear to me, and the things they have done for myself and family will never be forgotten.

In the past couple of years I've reached my ultimate breaking point with the higher ranks of this "church." The other day, a very important man attached to this organization said some terribly hurtful things that I just cannot, and will not stand for.... and this coming on the heels of them inserting themselves into governmental procedures of another state? I do not wish to have my name attached to any such organization that would stand for, or support this kind of behavior. They have their right to speech and religion.... I have mine. I really have to say, shame on you. You preach love and understanding, but under that is cruel, misinformed hatred. I'm not mad, I'm just disappointed.

Here is a link to a few blogs and statements reflective of the quotes from this man's hurtful talk:

http://www.hrc.org/14955.htm
Here is a link to an open letter to the church that you can sign:

https://secure3.convio.net/hrc/site/Advocacy?cmd=display&page=UserAction&id=945

So, I will be resigning from the Church of Ladder-day Saints, along with my children as they may be considered to be 'members of record.' I know there are a lot of people equally as upset by this as I am, and feel the same. If you would like to be removed the link below will tell you how to do so, and what to anticipate during the removal process. Not asking anyone do the same of course, but if you are interested, here is a link to the information:

http://www.exmormon.org/remove.htm

My More Serious Note

So, any and all of my friends that read this should know that I am in 100% support of equal rights for all Americans. With that, is equal rights for the Gay and Lesbian community, although some would say otherwise.

The "Don't ask Don't Tell" (DADT) policy, brought into law in 1993 prohibits gay and lesbian individuals from serving openly in the military. If anyone knows that they are gay, they will be discharged from the military, regardless of years of service, stature or what they may have done for our country. This law, is enforced MOSTLY on the basis of gay profiling.... commanding officers have admitted in some cases to searching through emails, personal belongings, and contacting soldier's friends and families based on the assumption that a soldier may be gay or bi-sexual.

This year alone, over 400 gay soldiers have been discharged from the military under this policy, which is COMPLETELY unconstitutional, and (in my opinion) completely immoral and.... let's be honest... just plain FUCKED UP.

This is not to say that I would support and of my friends and family in joining the military, I don't believe in it.... that's another blog all together. However, I am saying that for those that serve to honor our country, and defend our freedom based on what they believe in... deserve the right to do so, regardless of their sexual orientation.

In closing, please call your Senators before Tuesday, and voice your support of repealing the DADT policy. Here in Utah, our Senators are Bob Bennet and Orrin Hatch. I have called BOTH offices and asked that my senators repeal this policy. If you do not know your senator, you can call the national switchboard, and they will transfer you accordingly. In order to do so, you can dial 202-224-3121.


Please support the repeal of this law. Call your Senator. Have a voice. Hate breeds hate. Stop the cycle.